Sunday, February 08, 2009

The day when you feel totally hopeless and shiver with fear....

How does it feel, to hear from your project manager that you will work 7 days a week and for the span of 3-4 months? A sudden fear blanketed my body...and I stood there frozen...There was a lot of things crossing my mind..
my gym, my classes, my shopping spree, my duty of being a daughter, my tv, my rest, my sleep the list just went on and on....

I don't know how serious he was about the 7 days work week but I can see it being enforced to other teams now...Some of my colleagues have tried the 7 days week and believe me, they look like crap now...
I was even thinking in my mind...hmm during which hours can I squeeze my gym classes into? I wonder if it would even be possible.

Sigh, right now I am so demotivated...for the fact that wrong expectations has been set towards me and I can't deliver my work...It's not the amount of work that's bothering me, but it's the nature of the work. Being in an area that I am totally unfamiliar with and having only till this month end to come out with a mega-solution...Hmm this is just not right....

Today is Sunday, and I just got off work....It's close to 12am now...before I know it...I will be awake and getting ready for work tomorrow, of which is a public holiday....sigh....
Where do I find the strength to get through this??? Please help me....I pray that the job offer I have been hoping and dreaming for will realise soon....Everyone, please hope and pray for me as well....

Sunday, February 01, 2009

The Beginning of the "Niu" Year...

It's two more days, to "Back-to-work" day. Ish, feel so demotivated...what a way to start the Moo-Moo year....I was hoping for the determination and motivation to come back, however sadly, it did not...It seems to be gone...Huwaaaa, please come back.
They say that Roosters have it all this year...how come I am not feeling anything??? I have been sick since Chor 2 till now...and I still feel like crap when I think about going back to work, and also, I do not know where am I suppose to report to on Tuesday...How is that for a good start?! Wakakkakaa, I can just only pray for a change soon...For any change that is suppose to happen, it better happen FAST!

Bla...so sien and lazy....blog also lazy....how nice if this holiday did not come to an end....