The day when you feel totally hopeless and shiver with fear....

How does it feel, to hear from your project manager that you will work 7 days a week and for the span of 3-4 months? A sudden fear blanketed my body...and I stood there frozen...There was a lot of things crossing my mind..
my gym, my classes, my shopping spree, my duty of being a daughter, my tv, my rest, my sleep the list just went on and on....

I don't know how serious he was about the 7 days work week but I can see it being enforced to other teams now...Some of my colleagues have tried the 7 days week and believe me, they look like crap now...
I was even thinking in my mind...hmm during which hours can I squeeze my gym classes into? I wonder if it would even be possible.

Sigh, right now I am so demotivated...for the fact that wrong expectations has been set towards me and I can't deliver my work...It's not the amount of work that's bothering me, but it's the nature of the work. Being in an area that I am totally unfamiliar with and having only till this month end to come out with a mega-solution...Hmm this is just not right....

Today is Sunday, and I just got off work....It's close to 12am now...before I know it...I will be awake and getting ready for work tomorrow, of which is a public holiday....sigh....
Where do I find the strength to get through this??? Please help me....I pray that the job offer I have been hoping and dreaming for will realise soon....Everyone, please hope and pray for me as well....

The Beginning of the "Niu" Year...

It's two more days, to "Back-to-work" day. Ish, feel so demotivated...what a way to start the Moo-Moo year....I was hoping for the determination and motivation to come back, however sadly, it did not...It seems to be gone...Huwaaaa, please come back.
They say that Roosters have it all this year...how come I am not feeling anything??? I have been sick since Chor 2 till now...and I still feel like crap when I think about going back to work, and also, I do not know where am I suppose to report to on Tuesday...How is that for a good start?! Wakakkakaa, I can just only pray for a change soon...For any change that is suppose to happen, it better happen FAST!

Bla...so sien and lazy....blog also lazy....how nice if this holiday did not come to an end....

And what, on a Sunday morning?

I was sleeping peacefully....trying to recover from my Saturday...when my SIL (Sister In Law) woke me up from the sleep...

SIL: Girl wake up...we are going for body massage. I made appointment dy...
Me: Huh?! What! Snort...Zzzzzz
SIL: WAKE UP GIRL. You have 1 hour to wake up.
Me: *SPRUNG UP, FULLY AWAKE*

Don't people ever learn. You can never make spontaneous planning with the bear. Bears need to hybernate and bears need to move calmly...Not in shock! When in shock, bears BITE :P Hhahah kidding.
So yeah, SIL made a booking for my mom, myself and herself to try for a body massage near Sri Petaling.

Me, being a sakai, who do not like to be touched by other people went reluctantly. The place looks nice...very calming...smells nice...reminds me of mYoga environment a bit...Things moved very fast. A lady came and asked me to change my slippers, soak my leg in hot water, asked me to choose my oil preference and the next thing I know. I was in a room. She asked me to take off my clothes...hahahahah

And the massage started....It was...G.E.L.I....Don't they know that you should not tickle a bear? Hahhhaha....I had to brace through the geli-ness....Halfway through, I had to pee...haahhahahahaa too much coffee :P Aiyah...and she was moving to massage my tummy...Had to tahan that too....

Finally, the "torture" was over. Came out feeling....GOOD! and LIGHT! and RELAXED....o ya, and OILY. Mom who is used to all these, asked me to make it a frequent regime for relaxation and stress-relief...I'll think about it :P Now why did it take me soo long to understand what the rest of the woman in this world is doing for relaxation and self-pampering??? Geez...nvm, better late than never..

So..first it's mYoga, now it's massage...Hmm, I am loving this new life of mine!!!!

Rise and Shine on a Saturday morning?!

It has been very difficult staying awake the entire day today. Reason? I woke up at freaking 6.30am to go for yoga classes. Mind you, it's classes and not class. 2 classes. Class starts and 9am. Woke up at 6.30am cos I can't seem to really sleep anymore. I woke up automatically. Bathed, ate some bread and left at 8am to fetch Sooky.
I didn't think that it would be such a challenge to go through the day as normal working days, I usually get up at 6am anyway. However the night before I only slept close to 1am and to top that, to attend 2 physically and mentally challenging classes. Was falling asleep and dreaming in the second class. And for the first time, at the end of the class during the savasana(corpse pose) I actually dozed off. But just for a split 10 seconds or so. That was how sleepy I was.
With that, I am practically zombified the entire day. Well, will I do this again? Getting up so early for classes? Hell, Yes! But maybe I would attempt to sleep earlier the night before. I am amazed with myself that I am willing to change my lifestyle now and actually sacrifice my sleep for fitness. This is an amazing change!

New Year, New Beginning

A lot of people have changed their blog's look and feel for the new year. Thought I'll join in the fun. Hardly anyone visits this blog anyways. I'll see if I have the mood to blog again. If I do, this blog might not die as yet....

I love to come by once in awhile and re-read some of my old posts, and it brings back deep memories of the happenings in my life. Indeed, this is what this blog is meant to be, a place for me to jot down lil memories of my life....

Work is going to start again in two more days...I am trying my best to enjoy the remaining days of my holidays....I don't know what is installed for me at work, but I sure hope that, with this new year, I will garner new enthusiasm for the work that I do. I hate the feeling of losing momentum, as sometimes, I see that the way I embrace my work, somehow signifies the way I embrace life as well. Which is with a lack of interest and momentum. Not good!

During this period of idling at work, I am glad that I have actually somewhat utilized it fully. By enjoying the time that I have after work. To go home early, and do the things that I like. To take my dinner on time for a change, and not like close to midnight. To be able to surf the internet and catch up with my buddies after dinner. To be able to take my own sweet time to bathe and to prepare for slumber, instead of rushing to sleep for fear of the lack of sleep hours. That's really a big change in lifestyle. I do believe that this would be the lifestyle to go, if I do want to maintain a healthy and long life. The most fruitful accomplishment made during this period, must definitely be my enrolment to mYoga with Sooky. This has given me a new perception to my social life (as Sooky calls it) and there's something for me to actually look forward to. The classes are stuffs that I actually look forward to. Not so much because of the fitness benefits, but I do believe it's the opportunity for me to spend that 2-3 hours with my close friend. I think I really do treasure this period very much, for I do not know how long more it will last, but with every opportunity I have, I will cherish it.

I think these are the lil things in life that we do look forward to, and one day, when I look back....I will be glad that I made this decision to join the fitness centre. Many of my friends do not believe that I have actually made this move, and more often than not, they are all very encouraging. I don't see myself as some fitness freak as yet, as I still have a bulging belly and my weight seems to be still stagnant, but I have come to believe that, if I do not make this lil effort to attend these classes, I could get worse. As we grow older, I do see the significance of having lil stretches once in awhile to keep our muscles moving and engaged.

So...here's to a healthier 2009 (hopefully) with lesser stress, lesser MCs, and lesser doctor visits :) More smiles, more positive energy, more laughter and more happiness!!!!!!